At Dr.Oommen’s Clinic……

I've received a call from Dr. Jeomy last day informing me that Dr. Oommen wanna explain me about the current situation and the significance of current treatment plan….. so I’ve another appointment today at Dr. Oommen’s clinic!!! This could be my last meeting with him cuz I don’t wanna move on with this current decision under any circumstances….. 

Dr. Oommen turned up generous, explained me what they have planned for, what is the current problem they are facing now and what they are now really planning to do… he told me that my bones doesn’t have enough protection  so that they cannot guarantee about its healing…. In simple words it’s rejoining…. In case it failed to joint then the broken part will get damage permanently so it would the most problematic situation … i showed my disappointment to him…. I've been waiting for long 3 years for this treatment….. And I faced many problems related with this too, like toothache, headache and consumed lot of pain killers and antibiotics just for this treatment….. Now, leaving it here is like a suicidal attempt for me (Not like Selvaraj’s suicide)…. I was adamant although my heart felt weak, my mind was strong (According to Dr. Jose, PadmaSree winner cardiac surgeon, Guys thinking with heart and he doesn't about girls... i think girls are thinking with mind hehe)...He said it’s only your decision to move on with this risky decision and I won’t do that unless and until I get confirmation from your parents cuz you and your decisions seems childish and frivolous…. I lost my last hope because I’m sure damn sure that my parent doesn’t gonna approve this….. He asked me to think about this well and reach there next Monday with my mom for taking a final decision. I left  from there thinking what to do next to convince my parents……….

Seventh Discussion and the Second & Greatest Disappointment....

I was informed by my surgeons that they've arranged another discussion with Dr Sreejith on this Friday and now it will be at his clinic…… with a lot of expectation and hop I started my journey but there the most unfortunate thing happened…. The whole scenario was funny at the same time pathetic.....He treated us; I mean me, my mom and my doctors very badly… He stared at everybody including my doctors for approaching him for suggestions with this kinda hopeless cases. Dr. Rodney turned like Nimosa Pudica(Touch Me Not) and happily adjusted himself into a corner of that room... Dr. Oommen bravely move forward to ask his opinion,,, Dr. Sreejith shouted at him and teased him..... Dr. Oommen shrank like a worm as if he was frightened of him and then the pin drop silence...... My eyes searched for Dr. Jeomy to get his expressions, he was trying hard to explain the current problems and the available solutions on Dr. Oommen's ear.... Hearing that Dr. Oommen again come forward like Popoe just finished spinach but Dr. Sreejith alone was enough to screw them all... Again he became like a frozen ice cube and stood near Dr. Jeomy for courage.... I tried hard to control myself from laughing..... My sweet doctors suffering his insult for me, for my case..... I felt sorry.....

Dr. Sreejith is a government doctor and hence he thinks himself as something greater than any other…… He is having a huge hatred towards other doctors apart from those who are working in government sector. He is not having respect with his own colleagues then how’ll he treat me??? A poor visually handicapped patient!!!!! What kind of a doctor he is ??? I  thought, living in this much luxury with a well and ac furnished clinic and happily doing private practice. In Kerala private practice of government doctors is strictly banned and being a govt sector doctor his private practice is illegal... Doing an illegal thing at same time throwing tantrums!!!! Great i smirked...... Hmmm God have given all happiness and luxuries to him and God could simply take all these happiness away from him within 1 second... God wont do anything directly, He simply does those this through us, i mean me kinda normal people..

He teased my doctors for considering my case and approaching him with such an unpromising patient…… He delivered an ugly look to Dr. Rodney (at that time i didn't get the meaning of that look, later i found its just cuz both are orthodontists) and concluded everything with a message that “Don’t touch the upper jaw, and if u want, correct the lower one”… My surgeons have taken that as final and decided to move on with that decision…… Just for correcting my lower jaw why I have waited this far???? Almost 3 years???? Questions started raining through my mind like monsoon…..  But at that time, at his clinic I felt worthless even to question anything…..  Till I reach home, I was trying to co-op with the current scenario…. After being ignored by my doctors this much I’ve no power left in me to fight against this choice…..On the same time, I knew my case is complicated and risky so I tried my best to accept it…… But the more I tried console my mind the more it started protesting…… My friends and family showed their support and with that spirit I ringed Dr Jeomy today and showed my disappointment towards the current treatment plan and I’m not gonna do this anyways if they are moving on with this option…..

Valentine’s Day!!!!!!!

Today is the Valentine’s Day….. The day of love!!!!!! The day of Lovers and loving people’s….. I've taken a holiday to all tensions and have decided to freak out with my friends… Off to Veli lake, Vettukad church and Sanghu Mugham Beach and which was fun!!!  In the return trip, I just analyzed about my coming daysss…. How’ll be that???? Then have taken another decision to ring Dr. Jeomy, who have already stopped accepting my calls after a couple of times giving the same answer” NOTHING HAS BEEN FIXED YET”…….. I ringed him but after ringing twice the phone started giving a message… “The number you've called is busy at the moment Please try again later”…. MMMM he might be busy but mind failed to accept it…. It asked me to ring Dr. Oommen the main surgeon to get the whereabouts of the current scenario…… He picked up my call and said he is busy now so make him remember this on next Thursday as he is going out for a conference for two days……  

Waiting I’m waiting……..

It’s been over a month since I’ve received any news about my next discussion…. They seem to have forgotten about me and my case…..  Tried to reach Dr. Jeomy on phone but he said nothing has  been fixed yet and he’ll inform me when it got fixed….. Swelling and bleeding appears once or twice in a week….. Started getting clotted blood particles from teeth occasionally…. Emotionally i've gone from weak to resignation….

I’ve been having such strange dreams too….Last night I dreamed that I’m standing inside mortuary to identify one dead body and I found two bodies which was headless…. The next second the bodies have gone dark and turned completely black like a mannequin standing outside of a boutique…. These kinda horrible things happened every single night for the past 2 weeks……Fainted twice or thrice when I try to get up from bed on morning and normally doing some of my favorite works…..And these  things started going worse day by day so I decided to consult Dr. Amrita…. She consoled me and told me that my blood pressure is low may be because of the tension I’m suffering and checked my blood sugar and which confirmed normal…… 

Jingle Bells Jingle Bells

Again a Christmas day!!!!! This time I've taken a great decision that I'm gonna blast this Christmas… But on 23rd I had another visit to the orthodontist… They’ve given me new elastics to close the gaps around……. I had really bad toothache – sort of similar to when i got the braces on at first and they were doing the work that involved moving the roots of the teeth. Swelling also turned up on both sets teeth. I called the doctor this morning for help…He advised one pain killer, KETOROL DT and antibiotic ORDENT…. I rushed for the chemist but being a Christmas day all shops were CLOSED!!!!! And at last I found one shop opened, but those chemists have never even heard about these tablets… What a pathetic situation!!!! My Christmas day and celebrations ruined beyond expectations…..  Now I can barely talk, being a big talkative it is soooo hard for me to control myself........

Sixth Discussion

My appointment at Dr. Oommen's clinic got cancelled......Dr. Sreejith wasn’t free….  Again they fixed another appointment for today but the most distressing thing happened. My grandpa’s brother passed away last night and I have to attend his funeral…. But the doctors remind me that getting Dr. Sreejith’s appointment is soooo difficult so anyhow i need to reach there. hence I dropped the plan and got ready for the meeting….

Saw Dr. Sreejith and Dr Sooraj along with my surgeons and orthodontist……. It seems that Dr. Sreejith is not happy with the current scenario…. Thrown a question at me, are you a diabetic patient??? I said no at the same time I had a strong doubt whether I have diabetics or what???? Dr. Vinay’s( Retina specialist) same kinda question encircled through my mind….. He doesn’t satisfy with my no so thrown another question what about thyroid??? This time I was sure No I'm Not having……. Then he muttered some words turned here and there and asked Dr. Oommen for permission and left…… I’m so curious to know about the result…..I‘m sure that my case is soooo much complicated but how far???  Why they are not fixing a date so that this damn thing gets over fast.... I started loving the pain which this braces offers me but still... Finally Dr. Jeomy told me that one more discussion left with Dr. Sreejith then only they will be able to take the decision of my surgery........!!!!!!

Dry Eyes!!!!!

Wow. Had another visit to the orthodontist yesterday. They've given me new elastics to close the gaps around the front of my mouth where my front teeth don’t close, and its heavy duty stuff, man. I’m feeling pretty rough today (and last night) and I’m wondering whether that’s why.

Today's symptoms are:

• Headache
• Eyes hurt in the light.
• Mouth feels swollen inside.
• Keep biting my tongue again at the back
• Pain in upper lip where elastics are rubbing.

And i'm suffering from eye sore too.They hurt all the time, whether i’m reading, watching endless dvds, or on the computer. I’ve been waiting for this one, which isn’t surprising seeing as i’ve  found the eye drops function less about 10 days ago. I’m dying with this pain. Felt like to scratch everybody. I’ve just put some eye drops in and that hasnt helped, so maybe i should consult my eye specialist….