Today morning, had another appointment with Dr. Rodney at dental practice to check whether all fittings are fine inside my mouth or what….. He found all broken inside and asked whether I’ve chewed something or what…. According to Dr. Murukan’s advice I brought the hardest chappathi and paratha and chewed vigorously… He and Dr Jeomy started laughing and told me that all just to make my bite properly and now I’ve damaged all the fittings so don’t repeat that again….:)
I’m now here admitted…. The great Ananthapuri Hospitals and Research Centre… I check in here around 11 AM and got admission after passing a regular fitness check by the anesthetist, Dr .Sreevidya… She is from thrissur i guess, having a nice thrissur slang and i asked her about my chest xray's parts, she described that all to me... I liked her way of talking she is sooo generous.... And she confirmed no issue…..But I got admission on that hectic general ward only…. General ward is the most pathetic ward of whole universe I guess….. White cloths (we cannot mention that cloth as white cuz color changed long before) hanging everywhere and which gives the memory of haunted house in some English movies(Movie, The Others i'm sure)….. The toilet and bathroom scares me a lot it’s like earth just back from the big-band explosion…. I was able to identify those evolutionary particles too apart from God- particle… hehe just joking:):)…. The mug, bucket which they've provided remembered me my school days… My Parassala Government girl’s high school…. it all broken and the stinky smell made an uncontrollable urge to vomit….. I looked above in search of God and cried hard….. At that moment, for the first time in this treatment period I felt giving up all here and run away through the streets of Chaka (where this hospital situated) as an unidentifiable alien……. But my God helped me, I able to take a half bath, put up with those suffocation's, tears rolled on my cheeks then I told myself…. I’m the responsible for this….. I only behind ‘em like anything to do this…. So bear it!!!!!!…….
Now its 8’o(PM) clock… only 12 more hours left for my BIG operation…. I’m here thinking ways to sleep, pass time and fresh up my mind……
The things which I’m most afraid of:
1. Having dreams during the anesthetic
2. Waking up and talking a load of weird things and revealing my secrets
3. How much pain i’m going to be in when i wake up (and for the next two weeks/months after that!)
4. Waking up/becoming conscious during the anesthetic. (According to the book i just read this is an uncommon/rare side effect, and happens to less than 1 in 1000 people. Now I’m no statistician, but those odds sound way too risky to be starring in your own private horror film if you ask me)
5. My bones refusal for joining
6. The hospital cancelling the operation
7. Not being able to have a drink of water for like hours and hours and hours….
8. Waking up and not being able to breathe
9. Looking in the mirror after the operation
10. Being hungry all the time
11. Tube feeding
12. Going permanently on coma.
13. Swelling’s denial to go back
14. Forgetting everything and everybody
15. My face remains like this.
The things which I’m looking forward to:
1. Getting these braces off
2. Having a nice bite with all my teeth the right way round
3. Getting a new face (just hope and I’ll have that and if I have that i like it!)
4. Lying around doing nothing, reading, watching movies and surfing internet
I don’t think I’ll be able to sleep today…. In this much hot and unhealthy atmosphere… just found a friend here…. Staff nurse Miss. Sheba Sarah Varghese, chatted with her for a while, complained her about this damn general ward where I’m now sitting in, and enquired about tomorrow’s procedures….. In the mean time my surgeon Dr. Jeomy visited me and said, adjust here for today, after operation anyhow you’ll be shifted to room…… Sheba has given me some pills to swallow, I think sleeping pills yet not feeling sleepy but she is over my head!!!!!!
Right going to bed to catch up with some beauty sleep…..!!!!!
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Ananthapuri General Ward
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