The BIG Day….. The BIG Surgery.....

My operation wasn’t scary but it was a nice and an interesting experience….. I got up early morning around 5 AM after a disturbed sleep and took shower ( another one bathroom which Sheba has shown me last evening, which was better than the other )…. Around 8 Am duty nurse came with IV and they digged that inside my right hand and closed with a cap…. They made a channel for drip!!!!!! Then around 8 30 they again appeared with my uniform and a wheel chair to take me for the surgery….. I wasn’t sad, felt happy and was curious to know what gonna happen next…. Just waved bye to my mom and sister and said bye to that general ward!!!!

Inside the pre operation room they made me lay down on a stretcher attached a BP checking thing on my left arm and i was then wheeled onto the operation theater…I closed my eyes for a while then prayed 

And now I lay me down to sleep

I pray the LORD my soul to keep

And if I die before I wake

I pray the LORD my soul to take....

Inside the operation theater, there I found some familiar faces apart from those whom which I expected to be there, anesthesiologists, Dr Shaji Azad, Dr. Sreevidya….. I’ve seen one nurse applying gel on two tubes… after a while that suppose to be inside my nose oochhhh!!!! Then Dr. Azad and one lovely unfamiliar doctor (later I found his name, Dr. Mahadevan) talked with me… I asked about the various machines on that room and Dr. Mahadevan clarified me that all… then I asked for my surgeons, they didn't turned up yet. Dr mahadevan said, don’t worry……they are on the way. Dr Mahadevan asked me about my college stuffs as if he is sooo interest to know that…. I knew they are changing my attention from the nurse who started digging my leg to make path for another IV on my left leg…. I just started replying him and suddenly dragged on to sleep!!! conscious to unconscious state without seeing my surgeons…. I thought I’ll be giving anesthesia after their arrival only……….

I’ve seen my uncle Titus chatting with someone not so far away from me…. I called him uncle and raised my hand to wave him HI….. He started walking away without listening to my HI!!! I've gone behind him calling out loud uncle it's me Vaava uncle listen!!! Then he started moving fast, I tried my best to move fast but I couldn't… I was struggling to move fast then someone called me Sherin I woke up from sleep, a female voice informed me surgery is been over…….I was on one moving stretcher and that ends ups in a large room carrying lot of beds and stopped in one corner of that…. I saw my Surgeon standing near my bed asking how you are, Sherin…. I replied fine in a choked voice…. How are you feeling now I said I’m feeling icy cold…. He commanded one nurse to cover me with blanket… I saw My mom there to see me… asked how are you, again I uttered fine…. I moved my left hand from bed to touch her.... She hold that for a couple of seconds then said now I’m going I’m not allowed to be here for long and turned back…. Then sister… she also repeated the same words how are you??? By panting a kiss on my hand and marking a cross on my head with fingers she moved away….. Then I dragged again on sleep I heard another voice calling me Vaava and I opened my eyes it was my uncle Mohan standing near my bed….. I tried to touch him by moving my left hand… he hold my hand, covered with his other hand and that was warm and I held him tight, I felt my dad is there…. He asked me how you feeling now??? I replied icy cold… he asked about this with one nurse, she replied its common after anesthesia so no problem… He repeated those words with me and asked my permission to leave I shook my head….. Then Dr. Oommen again appeared and he asked me about my regular eye medicine… I replied having one eye drops and an eye ointment, he again commanded to those nurses to get that from my mother…. I wish to tell him no…. It doesn't require today… I could spend one day without that….. But my lips didn't move… I was trying to talk but no..... why????? After a while Dr. Jeomy came, said HI Sherin…… I wish to ask him a number of things.... about my anesthesia, about my surgery but lips cheated me again…. In that grief I opened my eyes wide open …… struggled to talk but no It was a failed attempt…. He smiled and turned away I wish to call him back but all went in vain… why I’m like this??? I felt sad…. Then I consoled myself that impulses might not be working…..

Night was horrible.... was on sound sleep till midnight… then one child has been admitted there near my bed…. His parents were also there and that kid was screaming like hell… I got irritated and lost the hope to sleep again…. Then one angel (nurse) shifted that kids bed to another corner so that his voice would not reach my bed and a guy replaced that area…. I felt happy and comfort…. Tried to sleep… checked my teeth which haven’t been covered with brace and found that missed.. ohh they removed that area… yippee!!!! I found the place where they did the cut an extraction hehe…… I’ve heard that guy murmuring and mumbling and talking continuously in a lowest voice… I wondered cell phones are allowed here or what???? Then I discovered that guy is making contradictory statements…. I felt sad…… wish to know why he is admitted here….. Then that angel came near me and helped me to drink juice (mango slice) and cold water….. I asked for hot but they denied….. Arranged another drip and went…… I lay down there thinking the possibilities of my bone’s joining and protection… Linkin Park's 'Nobody is listening' song popped out on my mind, Did those lines dedicate to my present condition or what??? But i have reply.... in that song itself hmmmm..... Keerti's face turned up on my mind.... Today will be her 4th day post surgery....  She might be recovering from swellings and the pain which was haunting her like hell.... Then my mind fully occupied with that general ward.....How they are doing???? where’ll be my mother and sister now???? At general ward??? If so how’ll they survive……..